"Scared To Lose?" - Gastric Bypass Surgery Video
Just some ramblings of what's going through my head lately. If anyone else feels the same way, please let me know! Thanks for everything you guys! :)
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I know just how u ...
I know just how u feel.. I have lost down to 199 3 times in my life and I? gain it all back.. It is some sort of comfort I guess when people don't look at u.. It is crazy
what an? ...
what an? inspiration!!! keep up the good work!!!!
I think it can be ...
I think it can be really hard to "become" that person we've always? wanted to be on the outside. Fat has been protection for so long. Great post! I just had my vertical sleeve on July 21 - last week. I just started posting videos, too, if you're interested in subscribing. :)
I know exactly what ...
I know exactly what you mean... I am both excited and a littel apprehensive and afraid of the 'unknown' ... I've never been? a so called normal weight and it's sort of like a dream world thinking I will be there one day.
I know exactly how ...
I know exactly how you feel, it is such a change to enter in to a new life, I? am more scared doing this (something i thought I knew everything about) than anything else.
Karla
I can? relate to so ...
I can? relate to so much of your video! All of my weight packed on over the past 10-12 years & I kept my clothes KNOWING that someday I would be able to fit into them again. Not wear them again, but be able to fit them & then donate them. I get scared- thinking maybe if I am not afraid then I may gain some back? Not sure. I want to be able to shop at Ann Taylor.
I didn't hit a wall ...
I didn't hit a wall until I started wearing size 14. That is the end of the plus size stores (most of them). I have not been able to buy anything below 14 because I can't believe that? I will actually get there!
I am terrified! I ...
I am terrified! I am always waiting for the other shoe? to fall. Fat chick thinking sucks! BTW...I want to shop at Ann Taylor.
zippy
Sarah, I was ...
Sarah, I was watching your video and my 18 year old who is gorgeous (and sweet) walked by and saw your video and said,? "She's cute!" Driveby loveage!
zippy
What a great ...
What a great inspirational story about your Elvis shirt! My dream goal would to wear my high school graduation dress at my Master's degree graduation! :D It's a size 18 dress. You have done amazing girl! Keep up the great work! I feel the same way you do. Those stores scare me too. The thought that it will actually happen freaks me out a bit too. I'm almost scared to let myself think that I'll get there if it doesn't happen you know? Great video girl!?
It is scarey! but ...
It is scarey! but I'm with you. let's shop gurly.. you are doing so? great!.. and your not alone.. I'm a wussy.. it all scares me too.. the whole change.. take care love didi
Sara, don't worry ...
Sara, don't worry and try not to think more than one day at a time. You are doing great!!! Don't lose the target!?
Isn't it crazy how ...
Isn't it crazy how we always keep clothing thinking one day we'll lose weight and fit back into it? But, look at you, you're actually doing it! 150lbs is my surgeons goal too. I don't even know what that looks like! YES Scary! I went into the? womens and tried on a 14w but they were too big, a good thing, but, I refused to go to the "normal" section because I feel like people will be looking at me thinking y am I there? Not ready to face it yet, so didn't get anything. Great Video!!
I am feeling the ...
I am feeling the exact same? things and every time a see another little change in my body (my cheekbone protruding a little more or my hip sticking out a little further) I wonder who this person is that is coming out of me. It's so cool but so freaking scary at the same time. Amazing!
i have one day off ...
i have one day off per week, that is the BEST day EVER especially if you're going shopping, there's hardly any lines/queues. :)
i get what you mean about freaking out, i too, haven't been this small since i was about 16-17. and when all my friends were? shopping i was the one buying accessories, not clothes. so you're definately not the only one. :D
hugs and ((good vibes)) Sarah XD
I totally relate to ...
I totally relate to this. I resently got into 16 and its like... holy cow... I cant even explain.... I havent brought myself to look in those stores? either...
Geez you read my ...
Geez you read my mind... lately i've been wondering if? i'll ever get to goal? if i'll screw up my once chance....it scares me to death to go back to being miserable and not having a chance at the life i know i deserve. so you are def not alone girly.
I so relate to what ...
I so relate to what you are going through Sarah. Just remember to take everyday one moment at a time. We are all here for you, as you are for us.? The unknown is always a scary thing. We are losing the weight so fast that it's going to take much longer for our minds to catch up! I'm so proud of you my Surgery Sista!! I can't wait to fit into 18's either!! Tehehe
u are so not alone! ...
u are so not alone! i fear failure so much that i nearly took my life a few years ago! the unknown is very scary! we're in this together and one day i will go shopping with you in arizona or? on las vegas boulevard NOT in the avenue OR lane bryant! i also shop at those places or at torrid (cool store for fat chicks!) but we will go shop together and it will be so fun and righteous!
Monika
ok so u tube at my ...
ok so u tube at my comment-grrr - try again! first of all that shirt looks quite roomy!
i am? also terrified-scared of the future, will it continue, will it stop, will it be hard to maintain, will i hit goal??? where will i shop and how?
I completely ...
I completely understand what youre saying. I freaked out when I got to around 265 (which had been my lowest adult weight). I wasnt sure if I would still be me, what it would be like and what that number would mean. I still dont know. It is scary, it is exciting too. Who am I if Im not the fat girl? I shopped at the Gap, The Gap!, the other day and felt so out of place. I thought people would turn to me and tell me I didnt belong. I guess I'm started to belong, no one even batted an? eye.
OMG I am so scared ...
OMG I am so scared to? even get the surgery, I really want to get the surgery and be normal. I am already approved and all I need to do is lose 15 lbs. to get a surgery date!!! I have an identicle twin that is 3 years post op and over 125 lbs. lighter than me. She also had her boobs done and a tummy tuck. Her clothes look so small. i see this every day, and it is hard for me to see myself that way, and I know that I could look like that, and I am so scared!!!!
I certainly hope ...
I certainly hope you understood that line "Not once i didn't think u could do it".. Meaning I knew you could do it!! I reread that & said omg she might take? that wrongly & didn't want it to be read that way/taken that way.. Loved the videos of the dogs w/ the water hose.. all the kids r talking about!! :o) love yas xo
Sarah I honestly ...
Sarah I honestly LOVE ur t-shirt!! u're 1 lucky gal :o) Have every right to feel the way u do it's quite an emotional trip. I can't wait to aboard that ride myself!
I'm amazed & impressed w/ how much u've succeeded so far in ur journey.. Not once i didn't think u could do it..It's just like night /day the change thru out WL & ur changing appearance.How much healthier u feel.. Aww I want this so bad & makes me? more upset w/ my mom for what she done to me!! Ah well take care of urself HUGS XO
This is such a ...
This is such a great video. It really makes me think about what it is going to be like after I have my surgery on Monday. I am used to being the biggest guy in the room and making jokes about it. I guess I hide behind it sometimes. To think about losing even 100 pounds for me is so exciting but It will be like going to a place I have not been to in a long long time and it will feel unfamiliar to? me but hopefully I will adjust well and live life how I should have been living all along.
Own that feeling of ...
Own that feeling of being scared!
You'll? "do" thin wonderfully!
Yeah, it scares me. ...
Yeah, it scares me. The first 50 pounds weren't scary because that just felt like a relief - like? I could finally breathe again - but to think of losing anything from now on is insane. What will it be like? Who will I be if I get into the 140s!?!?!?! That's unimaginable to me, honestly.
I can understand ...
I can understand what you are talking about, although I haven't had the surgery yet.... but that doesn't mean I don't think about every aspect of it now... Especially with all the videos I have seen on youtube. I don't know if you have ever watched Amelia's ''Skinny Fantasies'' video - pt 1 or 2. but I daydream about it rather often. shopping in a ''normal'' store. But I am also scared about skin & whatnot, when I get? smaller. lots of scary and WONDERFUL - things in store. Hugs! :-)
Thanks for doing ...
Thanks for doing this video because it makes me sit down and really think what lies ahead for me. It is kind of scary to know that you will soon be able to walk into any store and wear whatever you want. I know I will be because I? have no idea what in the hell I'm doing. LOL!!
I have to admit I ...
I have to admit I am scared of being thin, I haven't been thin in so long, im afraid that i will look weird. Or even maybe i wont be invisable to? people anymore.
